I still get hung up. I still act recklessly without thinking. I still let my emotions lead me around like a pup on a leash. I still am entirely too selfish. I still get stuck in the crowded throngs that fight for space in my head. I still obsess about those I fear losing most, and manage to obscure what’s truly important.
But I’m so far from where I used to be. I’m pretty surprised at the person I’m struggling so hard to be. She’s gonna be awesome.
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Could be that she already is and just hasn’t realized it yet.
I heart this line:
“I still get stuck in the crowded throngs that fight for space in my head.”
Otherwise, yeah, what Scott said.
RACIST CUNT
what Scott said.
this may not be the place for this, but you already are that awesome person. yes, there are struggles - the patriotboys, the flaunteds, the emotional stalls, the panicked moments - but I for one, and these three for three more, see past that to that internal you with whom you are already so closely connected, who you have fought so hard to bring to the surface, who is finally seeing the stems of the flower after so many years of growing those roots. you’re more than free to have your rough mornings - we all do - but keep your head up, life is good.
Very heartfelt. Very cool. And at some point, maybe you’ll let go of the thoughts and the struggles and realize that wherever you are and whoever you are is already perfect.
Its ok. Sometimes i want to devolve and climb back up in the trees and be an ape again too.
BRITTNEY, WOULD YOU PLEASE REMOVE MY EARLIER COMMENT? I AM SORRY. I WAS WRONG TO TAKE OUT MY SELF-LOATHING ON YOU.
It’s so hard to realize what is so GREAT when dwelling on something overshadows that. You stay strong. TRY TRY TRY to remember that this life is lived only once and sweating the small stuff just isn’t fucking worth it yo.
Love you!
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